The Nakedness of Publication

The short story I published earlier this month was not published under the illusion of wealth and sales. Seldom can a single, disconnected, self-published short story by an unknown author make it into the hands of anyone but her own friends and mother. I know this. Rather, I published it as a beginning, as a dare to myself to make my fiction available and see what happens.

The unexpected result is that I feel naked, knowing it’s out there. I don’t feel such over news articles or blog posts I’ve written. Somehow, “Ba’byl” is a different piece of me, a more raw piece, a more real piece. Somehow, the truths of my short story are deeper and more personal than the truths of events that really happened. It is not a record of events, but it is a record of the musings of my soul.

Ba’byl” is a true piece of me that people can own, buy, seize for themselves, and then read, ignore, publicly review, enjoy, despise, praise, lambast, casually dismiss, forget. It is a piece of me in a way no nonfiction prose is, and it’s the first piece of my fiction that has been made widely available. I feel terrifyingly vulnerable.

Those who would judge “Ba’byl” have the opportunity to judge me. They judge not merely the writing. They also judge me. And I let them. That is what the writer does. She opens her soul to the world, permitting judgment, hoping someone will see the beauty and value therein, hoping someone’s day or life or self will be made better or brighter because of it.

2 thoughts on “The Nakedness of Publication

  1. Sparks,
    I’m behind on things since my Mom passed away earlier this month. I got on Amazon and tried to buy this story, but asked me to what “Kindle device” would I like it delivered? I didn’t see an option for “I don’t have a Kindle!!! so just PDF it to me, pal!” :::>
    I’ll figure out a way to read it; the review of that woman in LA was pretty cool; I’m so proud of you! =)

    • Hey! I’m sorry to hear about your mom. That’s a real reason to be “behind on things” for sure.

      If you don’t have a Kindle, you can use the Kindle app on a smartphone or tablet, or — probably the easiest option — you can read it directly in your browser using Amazon Cloud Reader. Thanks for buying it, and I hope you enjoy it 🙂

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